I’m partially processing something in this that I would also enjoy meditating on.
I am absolutely thriving at Starbucks.
And yesterday I let myself enjoy the crap out of that.
I let myself think all the enthusiastic things and stopped other ideas from coming in to criticize the joy that I was feeling.
Things like, “I trust Starbucks more than I trust anything.” “I can rely on Starbucks.” and “Starbucks will never leave me.” lmaoooo
“Starbucks is older than the wind and the stars and will be here after I am dust.” Well, I may have made this last one up a little bit. But seriously the other ones were honest.
I have been hot and cold with coaching and bodywork clients for so many years now that I have not had steady, consistent income that I fully knew in my body I could rely on for a very long time.
This has been a reminder to my nervous system of what that feels like.
After my latest pivot into wanting to help mothers have the help they need for themselves brought more Instagram likes and follows but crickets on my client calendar, I got a job at Starbucks.
Actually, literally, I was walking across the parking lot across the street from my neighborhood when I asked Spirit, “Spirit, what should I do to make more money?”
And Spirit replied, “Get a job….?”
To which my ego replied, ———uhhhhhhh but I’m a transformational coach magic shamannnnnn lady…?
And then Von’s (a grocery chain owned by Albertson’s) was in view and I heard Spirit say, “Get a job at Von’s. Who fucking cares?”
And the next day I got a job at the Starbucks kiosk inside Von’s.
This Starbucks is a 5 minute walk from my current home. Which means I can walk back, walk Maggie, eat something, and walk back on a 35-minute lunch break.
I didn’t use my car for four days in a row last week. It feels AMAZING.
I reliably make $500 a week. I get to work on new skills in a new culture with tasks I can expect to reasonably succeed at and also require challenge. My milk foam designs are coming alooooonnnnngggg. My efficiency improves daily at every aspect of the job.
I get to interact with people every day! I LOVE PEOPLE! I get to be a genuine and heartfelt part of many people’s days, every day, and the vast vast majority of these moments are exceedingly positive.
I have no fear of being fired or wonder if there will be hours for me next week. I am regaining the experience in my soul of what it’s like to be able to rely on and save up money, which is another conscious choice I’m making about what to do with the money coming in.
I fucking love it.
I am realizing how much I LOVE containment. I love being put into a position I can succeed at by other people. It is blissful and magical for my experience. As much as I love and am good at leading, great in many regards and contexts, I think I might love being a follower more. Which is really interesting to me because I’ve never considered this idea before, ever since I started my Thai massage business back in 2013.
I am exceedingly feminine in preference, going with attunement and my view of energy fields to guide me in what may look like chaos to others but has true rhyme and reason to me.
I follow stable presence. I rail against containment that is unreliable or sticky energetically. I don’t see my manager as a leader almost at all, but I believe in Starbucks.
As has come up in many sessions in my coaching practice, “you probably don’t have a problem taking orders, just ones that don’t make sense to you (yet?), from people you think are incompetent.”
The nice thing about working for Starbucks, and for Olive Garden prior, is that these gigantic corporations actually have a lot of things figured out. You, I, we may not agree on their existence and practices in the larger context of things at times and have a zillion ironclad arguments about that, but when it comes to accomplishing and training people to do the things they have wanted to do, they have great fucking ideas about how to do those things. Immoral doesn’t necessarily mean incompetent. Lol.
Give me someone worth trusting and I will follow them to the ends of the coffee bar.
I will be the best employee they’ve ever fucking had.
It’s interesting times, friends.
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