In The Supportive Mind course I told the story of how I rather instantaneously and nonchalantly spat out to someone that blocked emotions cause cancer and how I later discovered both TCM (Traditional Chinese Medicine) and other resources at least in part agree with me.
As I return to German New Medicine, which I wrote about several years ago when I first discovered it, for a deeper dive into the pool, I’m feeling quite validated.
You know how the best “learning” just feels like a *thud*, "of course I knew that” sort of remembering more than a new thing? It’s like a piece of your brain just woke up as a puzzle piece slid into place.
In personal development this is often achieved via giving the subconscious mind avenues to sprout through the crusty conscious layer. I instruct clients to speak out loud at a rate that doesn’t allow them to think or to write with the purpose of producing as many words as possible in order to get ahead of their editing, critiquing minds and into learning something they did not yet know about themselves.
Eventually you reach a new piece of information that makes you feel more whole, complete, and like a weight has been lifted out of your body. The experience of capital-T Truth happens somatically. It’s felt knowing, also known as gnosis.
I follow and learn from humans that think I’m smart, and you’re smart too. I seek teachers that believe that things actually fit together, even if it doesn’t seem like it at the time. And definitely if it doesn’t feel like it at the time.
Did you know that obesity is extremely common among victims of sexual abuse? Have you ever thought about how recurring UTIs could come when someone is having sex they don’t actually like?
These aren’t too hard to stretch the imagination and reasoning around, but the underlying message of the wisdom of the body is more unacknowledged than any other part of these examples.
Whether you believe bodies are beautiful at every size or not, excess fat creates a literal layer between you and the world around you and in most cases is not considered conventionally attractive. Both serve perfectly as a defense for a terrible situation one may not be able to escape, as may be the case in sexual abuse situations.
UTIs or any number of other discouraging vaginal happenings can be the subconscious oozing out (haha not sorry) to protect you from your own pretending to like someone.
My body has shut my libido down in relationships where my body saw the end long before I accepted it myself. I recall in my 20s just assuming that it was my body …I can barely even spit this out it’s so dumb to me now… in my 20s assuming it was just time for my body to start a declining and expected reduction in sex drive. Jesus. That was before I discovered Kim Anami.
And Norman Doidge’s two books.
And The Body Keeps the Score.
And Functional Range Conditioning.
And shamanism.
And freebirth.
And German New Medicine.
All things that “discovered” and proliferated the ideas that you could do far more than previously believed; that there were ways of communicating with yourself that would shape the human you became in any way you dared dream to be shaped so that you would feel more whole, complete, and accepting of yourself and your potential.
And they all taught me that you aren’t stupid. You just respond to stimuli. You are probably grossly underexposed to coregulation and a lifestyle that reduces stress. More about that soon.
And at the root of all of this is the permission you give yourself to be with what is happening without fear.
Meditate frequently and you will get better at this at a baseline level.
Cancer kills more people with the diagnosis shock than it does from growing cells.
What if cancer made sense? And wasn’t a problem?
All you need to know right now is another add-on to the list of things you need to believe or know about before you encounter it elsewhere, in a way that is intentionally designed to scare you.
You do not need to be frightened of cancer.