I found myself at the “Neuroscience Needs a Revolution in Consciousness Symposium” yesterday.
People there liked talking about science, neuroscience, math, consciousness, experiments, and spirituality.
Really.
I had gone to meet my friend Tommy, whom I met dancing a month ago, at the Self-Realization Meditation Gardens…(“Seriously”, I asked Tommy, “am I in a simulation designed for me?”) in Encinitas just to hang out and next thing I was sitting across from a man (the man?) who does data analysis for Joe Dispenza’s experiments and next to a lovely man from Tokyo who has been studying meditation and our ability to measure photons coming from people’s eyes for 30 years. It felt very natural. Tobi bought everyone’s lunch.
I nearly fell asleep in a few of the lectures and many of the questions were over my head during the three that I attended. But the talking with people, now that was interesting.
I guess a lot of people go to this thing to hobknob and network, so people were mostly very interested in talking to one another in the courtyard over cheese plates.
I’m writing in an attempt to integrate some of the ideas that caught my ear, particularly with my new friend Jim from Sedona.
He likes teaching people about what he’s termed Choice Points, and then how to go with the flow between Choice Points.
He says that every Choice Point should be met with the decision to move towards more coherence.
When I prompted to define what that meant further, the explanation that I’ve been left with, whether it’s exactly what he said or not, was that coherence was similar to an alignment with God/Source.
In recent months I’ve been enjoying playing with having more conversations with Spirit, as I usually address it, in my decision-making, so this didn’t seem like much of a stretch.
If I visualize a Y in the road and decide which direction has more coherence, the answer surprises me. It helps me notice where I’m forcing something; I see potential for less wasted time trying to force myself to expand or whatever definition of growth I’ve decided to define for the moment. It fits into the Carolyn Elliott Existential Kink model somewhat by having your whole self on board.
Tommy’s friend Gino has him working on breathing in a more relaxed way, which I’m on board with fully for him - and highly recommend this video from my simple, self-empowering breathing course for a similar expansion of your breathing quality -
When you become aware of where you’re breathing better, it becomes easier to tell where the hell your awareness is operating from. One of my current projects ever since a voice-training singing class I went to is noticing whether I’m embodied or not more frequently. Right now you might be able to notice that your awareness is in your head, or above your head, or in your body. I am much more impenetrable to outside influence when I find I am in my body, so I practice bringing myself back there frequently after I notice my awareness is outside of it.
Also Jim reminded me about moving toward how you want to feel and allowing the rest to pixelate as needed.
Rather than focusing on what you want in the tangible, focus on what you want to feel, feel that, and allow it to shape the rest of your life.
Notable is that when Tommy told me he was at the first day of the event, on Friday, I was magnetically drawn to and felt inspired desire to go more than I have anything in a while. It fit perfectly within my own framework of noting what energizes you. Even though I didn’t yet know I would be attending on Saturday, it struck my system strongly and calmly.
Today has been a very down day. Though I’ve enjoyed the rain in San Diego I slept most of the day and have avoided company in large part.
Personal stuff
I just watched the video above. It’s really good overall. I’m usually surprised and pleased when I watch my old videos.
And yet I feel like a failure watching it.
7000+ followers on Instagram. Couple thousand on YouTube. My mind went out to all the support I’ve received over so many years. The room I recorded that in at Elevate MMA in Durham was such a symbol of the support I’ve received and right now I feel like I was so ungrateful for it. I’ve always had access and ownership of gyms I was a part of ever since my first gym in Maryland and maybe I didn’t appreciate them well. Now I don’t have a gym that’s mine, no gym floor that’s mine to roll over and record on whenever I want to. But mostly the sense of failure is that I’m not anywhere with my coaching or courses. What do I have to show for it. I realized today that part of my attachment to Robert was so that I could feed off of his stature as a competent person in our community and if I was associated with him then maybe that would feed off into my own reputation. As if compliments to him were really compliments to me and something to take pride in for myself. I’m seeing how much pain I still have around feeling like I matter, or I’m good enough, even though I was already in a position of authority at Elevate and well taken care of there. I feel like a leech.
I feel like depression serves a purpose and I look forward to figuring out the alignment in mine.
Hi Sam, nice job! Yes, my definition of coherence is most like "the frequency of God, Source, Innate Intelligence, the Order that everything shares, etc.." And yes, using ChoicePoints™ in the moment (each moment) to refine your direction toward more coherence, delivers some pretty startling and simple stuff.. Ultimately, ChoicePoints™ become the steering, the rudder if you will, to unfold your life and deliver what I like to call "allowing" allowing to do life's heavy lifting! And yes, if you have to want something, want how you want to feel! The more refined your feeling, the more refined your state and vice versa.. Seems I just put an article up at www.COREresonance.com/choicepoints about ChoicePoints™ Thanks for what you do, who you are, who are becoming and who you like to share with.. Good all round fun! Namasté
J.Hamilton, Sedona
Wow, love this post. What you're feeling, what's being excavated, what you're expressing, is all in line with the subject of your post (choice - point - alignment). Even the narrative arch (loop!) confirms the intention and inevitability of coherence. Thanks as always for keeping it real.