Trying to Channel Jesus for 15s

I did not, as I planned to, end up going to the thrift store yet and begin my new career as a thrift-flipping mogul. Soon.

I have been nicer to Vern in the aftershocks of the experience of channeling Jesus so far.

I was thrown sideways when I realized how little I’ve experienced giving without weighing what I would get in return first.

I have been giving (77-years-young, bedridden effectively quadriplegic) Vern free labor for over a month now - but is it really free?

In my optimistic states I think, “Wow, I’m getting a chance to experience true giving, or close to it, since I’m not getting a ton out of this.”

In my pessimistic or drained states I so eloquently think, “F this, I’m out, and I hate him.”

In a particularly childish moment this week, I decided to handle my internal tantrum and become one with Jesus. I would channel what Jesus would do. And whatever I did, it lasted for 5 seconds of lovingness that surpassed the separateness of giving and taking. Going back for seconds, I lasted 10 more in coherence with Oneness. And it blasted me with the knowledge that I normally don’t do anything without weighing what it is I’ll get in return.

This episode discusses that incident, and what I’m planning to do with the experience.

There is a momentary blip in audio in the beginning and near the end, but everything else is fine for the sound.